Death is something that I have been adding to my writings lately. Though my writings have always been erotic romances, I have been moving toward killing people off in my novels.
My family is not surprised. They have come to the conclusion that I am obsessed with death. These thoughts have come from the fact that I love to watch crime dramas like Criminal Minds, Law & Order, Bones, and all of the CSI shows. If I’m not watching that, I am glued to either HLN watching the Jodi Arias trial or Investigative Discovery.
I wouldn’t say because I love the show that I am obsessed with death. I grew up watching those types of shows with my mom. My mother and I, when I was younger, used to watch, Colombo, Perry Mason, Matlock, Diagnosis Murder, Murder She Wrote all the time. Those were bonding times with my mother. And later we both became obsessed with CSI Miami and Law & Order SVU.
We both said it was not “death” itself that we loved about the shows. It was the mystery and the
At one point, I stopped watching those shows after my mother died three years ago. After her death, I will admit that I did for a second become obsessed with death. I became obsessed with the pain and my own mortality. If anything I became afraid of death. I was afraid of dying leaving my kids with the pain that consumes me when my mother died. I couldn’t bear to watch death on TV and watch autopsies and crime scenes.
Though my mother died of natural causes, the pain of her death was too much. Watching those shows hurt worse when I thought about all the times we watched the shows together.
Ironically, after a while, her death made me appreciate life more and how I should feel blessed for all the things in my life. Her death helped me to make strides to better my life and accomplish things I never thought I could accomplish. It wasn’t until after my mother died that I published my first book.
No, I’m not obsessed with death. I just have been wondering what it would be like to kill off a few people in my stories. I wanted to test my writing skills and take that journey to see if I have what it takes to write an erotic murder mystery series.
My family thinks it would be no problem for me. With the amount of crime dramas I watch and the law classes I took in college they feel like I’ll be a natural at this.
No, I’m not obsessed with death. I am obsessed with the fear of dying.
Bonus: My favorite movie of all time is Clue